Hello everyone!! Well I decided to start blogging, just to let everything out that I've been holding in the past couple months. I have kind of shut down my emotions to protect myself from feeling anymore pain then what I have already been through. As anyone who really knows me, knows, I am more than likely headed for a divorce.... something that was never something that I wanted, but when you are in a marriage, its not all up to you. I have been in a relationship with someone for almost 9 years in a couple months, who has never made me feel loved.. not even once that I can think of, in any normal circumstance. Being married, and handing over your heart, and having someone not care for it, can cause damage in more ways than one. I have learned this the hard way. But, I am at a point where I have to heal. I have to grow. I cant stay the same person that I am, cause this person is damaged. So, I'm thinking about posting some of my journaling that I have done over the past year, which is when this all kind of came to a head, just so I can vent and let it out. Some people may think that its airing my dirty laundry, but to me, its freeing... its accepting what has happened to my life and learning from it. So I hope that no one judges me on how bad or vulnerable it may be, and I don't know how much I am willing to share at this point, but we will see. SO, until next time.. Bye!!!